Just a Moment, Let's Talk!

So I'm supposed to be starting work at the Disney store today.. I'm really not sure about this job yet. I've just been so anxious to start, and now when I get notice that I need to start today I feel like the laziest person ever. I want to make money, but right now I feel like not doing anything. I'm trying not to dread this at all because it's just going to make my experience worse. On the other hand I did great in my classes for this semester's midterms :) I'm still working on my DAT practice but very slowly :( It's the best I can do since I'm taking a full load of classes this semester.

So, currently every time I log onto Facebook I see a fellow classmate from either HS or college that is getting married. I'm genuinely happy for them, but can't help to place myself in their spot. I think about what would it be like to be in their spot and would I be totally ready for that commitment. I don't have commitment issues at all, but I just know that I am not ready nor is my current state of mind ready. I have goals that need to  be finished and actually beginning a lifelong relationship like that is a bit much to add on. Don't be mistaken, I really do want to be married one day, but I just need time for me to get to know myself after college. My philosophy for myself is that I will graduate, get into dental school, live alone in an apartment for a while, then pursue that step in life (marriage). Hopefully this marriage will be with my current loving boyfriend if he still wants to be with my crazy self! :) I just hold marriage up to really high standards and

August 2, 2012 July 2012  my ends are forming! bantu knot-out After a shampoo June 2012 So far I have retightened my hair two times and twisted my roots two times. I'm trying not to do too much with my hair so I'm trying to stop retightening and twisting so often. I will continue to use a combination of interlocking and palm rolling until I see fit. I don't get my hair, sometimes it hangs closer to my neck and sometimes it just looks shorter than when I started. shrinkage :(

So Im up and it's 5:23 AM -_- and i realize that i just didn't finish studying last night. I still need to do my Chad's DAT videos for the day. Gotta sacrifice sleeping to get what I want.